Now, I say ‘first true experience’ because, as most of you know, I have tried salvia MANY times. I’ve tried 20X, 40X, and 60X strength extracts. Everytime I have tried the exact same way- smoking the salvia out of my bong. Each time it would be the exact same thing- a euphoric feeling would start in my shoulders and shoot both up and down at the same time through the rest of my body, and then i’d have a crazy euphoric feeling for about 5 minutes. Never any visual hallucinations, changes in my surroundings. I could always talk, walk, and communicate with other people the entire time.
I came home from work last night, and although I was disappointed that when I had smoked salvia earlier that day by myself [hoping that without people watching my mind would let go and it would work more than it had before] and it had done nothing, I decided to try smoking it one last time [since I do already have the extract and all]. I sat down on the ground in my living room and pushed the table away from me so if something did happen I wouldn’t hit my head or knock something over.
I loaded my bowl with as much 40X salvia extract as I could, and took a huge rip. Almost instantaneously I knew that this time was going to be different. Right after I blew out the hit and set my bong down, everything changed… but not. Immediately when the effects came in, I had forgotten I had smoked salvia. I guess not ‘forgot’- just the idea was NO WHERE in my mind that this change in my life was caused by salvia. It seemed as though I had been going about my every day life and this just randomly happened.
All of a sudden I was… a book? I don’t know how to explain it. I was a book and right after I had blown out that hit of salvia my life [the book was the story of my life] ended. And in my mind i’m thinking “No. This is my life, it’s real. It’s not a book.” And then a deep male voice kept replying, “No, your life is over, it was all a book put together for others to enjoy.” And so i’m crying and repeating to myself over and over “No, this is my life. It’s real.” And the narrarator voice replied. “No, it’s fake. Let me show you.” And then all of a sudden it was like my life was in rewind but I was being ‘flipped’ over and over again [like the pages of a book] and watching the last hour before I had took the salvia hit before my eyes, while crying. I saw me watching TV, texting friends, feeding my cats, watering the plants. I had no control of ‘my body’ [which was a book? Like I said, idk how to explain it], because I kept trying to resist and would be pulling back to try to keep the page from turning, but no matter how hard I tried, it kept turning and ‘rewinding’ my life.
All of a sudden I came out of it, and I was standing out front of my house in my drive way trying to get into my truck, somehow I had managed to walk all the way through my house and get outside while tripping. When I walked back inside I realized the narrarator voice had been a man’s voice on the TV- and I think when I walked outside and couldn’t hear it anymore, kind of snapped me out of that trip.
I walked back inside super fast, still REALLy shaky- my vision still a little shaky as well. There was a massive ringing in my ears that was driving me crazy, and all I kept thinking about was how I was going to be stuck feeling like that forever, and it scared the shit out of me. I paced my house for about five minutes [which seemed like an ETERNITY at the time], and finally started to feel normal.
It was really intense. More intense than I could ever try to explain.